Well, here we are. I’m not exactly sure where here is…but we are indeed here. This past month has been challenging in so many ways. Where do I begin? Much of what has been going on is personal, private…and I’m really not certain how much I should share.
I had a recent health scare. I spent a month rotating through denial, anxiety, peace…. Thankfully, that’s all it was, a scare that will be reevaluated in 90 days. I received that confirmation last Wednesday morning. On Wednesday afternoon my family received somewhat shocking news about a family member. I’ve been asked not to give more specifics, but let’s say that I am deeply saddened.
The bottom line, I know that our days are all numbered. But the ballgame seems to change when you know.
So, this last month has really thrown me for a loop. I would really love your prayers, not for me, but for my extended family.
In the meantime, life has gone on. Mr. OverKill has been amazing and supportive. Our family has been able to have time together doing fun things, and doing nothing. We’ve trudged through school, chores, and laundry.
We’ve also been making some life changes. I mentioned back in October that I have changed my diet to include tons more fruits and veg, and less red meat. Well, my changes have made an impact on Mr. OverKill and he has also changed his diet. This change has been amazing for us. It’s so much easier to make changes like this when your spouse is on board. Last night Mr. OK swung by the store on his way home and picked up all the fixins for fruit smoothies for dessert. Smile. The kids are catching on and I love that. I have also gotten back on my exercising wagon. I’ve not placed importance on weight loss in the past, but for right now, I am. I want very much to get down to a healthy weight, in a healthy way. No, I won’t be using any crash diets :) Rather, my plan is to exercise daily and continue to focus on healthy foods and healthy portions. The only “radical” thing I may do is a juice fast. Not sure about that yet…
I think all these “things” have made me a tad…selfish. I don’t want to do school with the kids, I don’t want to clean, I don’t want to cook, gasp! I know!!! I find it interesting that the Lord continues to peel back the layers of my selfishness. First, with marriage, then with an infant, later with 4 kids, again with homeschooling…Now, He is asking me to faithfully follow Him, and lay aside the selfishness that would otherwise have me laying in bed eating chocolate. It is SO hard, and honestly, I am not joyfully laying aside “self.” But I pray that as I obey and lay aside my self, that eventually joy in this sacrifice will follow.
So there you have it. You are all caught up :)
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your extended family member.